UNBEARABLE PAIN
all this PAIN i'm
is just too much for ME to bear
NO ONE understands me at
can someone SAVE me from these pain
even when i'm under all those glaring stars
I still feel that it's very DARK
light comes & i walk ALONE
feelin lonely
feelin EMPTY
feelin down
ALWAES WAITING
i am
i want to
but i try not to
WAITIN to b accompanied
a
where u sit or stand ALONE
n LONELINESS u embrace
the PAIN in ur hEaRt approaches
ur mouth gets dry
is sitting down to CRY
i'm DYING
i'm afraid i cant bear E pain in my heart,
n would
i cant BREATHE
it's so hard
it's lik i hab to
SOMEONE...
TAKE my hands,HOLD mie tight
i wan to get
PLS....pls....PLS SAVE MIE FROM TIS PLACE
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oh yes! Me going put braces lerhx...hehx....jux now went tuu National Dental Centre at around 10.15 reach there den wait for mahhs turn tuu cum...blah blah den the orthodontics doctor ask mie take X-ray the do the mould thingy and take photographs of my teeth walao the nurse stretch my mouth until so damn pain like my lips gonna tear apart...hahax...anyway its over! on da 12/6 is another appointment n it will b another orthodontics doctor coz tis doctor will b moving tuu tanglin shopping mall...hehex next tym go i think is pluck teeth lerhx...haishx miie scared of pain...but bo bian for mahhs appearance i sacrifice lorhx...haha..dunno y so excited lehx...after mahhs badminton training i call hw n i tell him when next tym i put braces liaos i wanna put black n piink he sae tt later very ugly not his fault hor...walao...sae until like tt...i was like..wad the....how can he sae tt...?!!!freek man..haha...ok i pretend normal hehex...clever bahx...aniwae u noe y i wanna put black n piink?coz hw like black n white den my teeth already white so put black then my favourite colour ish piink so black n white together wif piink...i noe it's stupid but i happy can lerhx...haha i still rmb i heard one sissy laughing...sounds like mine hurhs? yah yah~hw saes it's a girl~-_-'' like real wors...it's tt derrick if i'm not wrong his name ish spelt like tt bhax...blehx....frankly speaking the tym we spend talking on da phone hab becum lesser n lesser...hohoho....(yawn) wad tym lerhx now?...still chatting on msn somebody kept asking mie write testimonial dun feel like writing dun force me lehx walao eh....sianx lorhx...n nth tuu write...-no offence-
see n u will noe lerhx...-cry-
(e][R){kY} : YummY ! says:
now u haf time ?
(e][R){kY} : YummY ! says:
write me a testimonal lehx ...
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
okokokokokokokokokokokokokokokokokok
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
but i dunno write wad
(e][R){kY} : YummY ! says:
u gt wholivesnear you ACCOUNT ?
(e][R){kY} : YummY ! says:
but the testimonal dun use "Copy n Paste method" type it out..
(e][R){kY} : YummY ! says:
haha
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
i dunno write wad
(e][R){kY} : YummY ! says:
anything
(e][R){kY} : YummY ! says:
but not say bad about me .....
(e][R){kY} : YummY ! says:
u free chat ? sianz
(e][R){kY} : the best food in EXPO hall 4 is Potato Wedges ! haha says:
hello
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
wadddddddd?????????????????????????????????
(e][R){kY} : Holiday Sianz .... 1) ZZZzzz... 2) Eat says:
u writing testimonal ?
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
walao eh u really really of damn want the testimonial die die also wannnn?????????
(e][R){kY} : Holiday Sianz .... 1) ZZZzzz... 2) Eat says:
sorry larx ...
finally u let me go...haha...hehex...so no nid write testimonial liaos lorhx...WOOHOOOO!!!
sianx wah piang...no idea wad tuu write nia n i also dun really noe u nth tuu write de lor...haishx.
shit! i copied n paste the conversation...that guy sure angry dex...dun care larhx...hehex(no offence) sianx dun talk bout this lerhx okay change topic...today bmt training becoz of long tym no train lerhx then my shoulder very pain niax....run 5 rounds around the sch den 50 pumpings 60 sit ups ok larhx...only tt 5 rounds make mie wanna die...haha...wah sei..tis month i will b busy like siao my time table full of activities...got aviva got bmt outing got class outing hab tuu see orthodontics doctor then got bmt training...busy like siao...haha heyys aniwae can sieze the chance tuu spend tym wif him lorhx..but onli da aviva can see him...haishx...heh but nevamind it's 5 daes so tt means continuous 5 daes can see HIM!!!!!!!! shit...sorry...i'm going mad..once i think of 'wadeva' i WILL go crazy...hahax...
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
i gonna put braces!!!
(e][R){kY} : Holiday Sianz .... 1) ZZZzzz... 2) Eat says:
oh ?
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
ya!!!
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
so happy
(e][R){kY} : Holiday Sianz .... 1) ZZZzzz... 2) Eat says:
why ? wat braces ?
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
teeth de larhx
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
ahlamak
(e][R){kY} : Holiday Sianz .... 1) ZZZzzz... 2) Eat says:
oh
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
u dunno wad braces are?
(e][R){kY} : Holiday Sianz .... 1) ZZZzzz... 2) Eat says:
pain !
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
ya
(e][R){kY} : Holiday Sianz .... 1) ZZZzzz... 2) Eat says:
i know
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
but i wan good appearance haha
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
hah
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
hehx
(e][R){kY} : Holiday Sianz .... 1) ZZZzzz... 2) Eat says:
dun smile after putting it
(e][R){kY} : Holiday Sianz .... 1) ZZZzzz... 2) Eat says:
haha
(e][R){kY} : Holiday Sianz .... 1) ZZZzzz... 2) Eat says:
u free ? can chat ?
(e][R){kY} : S$660 needed . and $0.45 bus fare says:
u free ? can chat ?
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
y cant smile?
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
idiot larhx
(e][R){kY} : S$660 needed . and $0.45 bus fare says:
if n0t can see the braces
zi yao you ni wo jiu mun zu lerhx shi jie zai hei duo bu yao jing says:
stupid
(e][R){kY} : S$660 needed . and $0.45 bus fare says:
.....
(e][R){kY} : S$660 needed . and $0.45 bus fare says:
nvr take care of teeth ?
wtf...dun continue lerhx so stupid...ok...i continue watching youtube...tt website got mie haha...no larhx jkjk...next tym sure got mie...hehex...
wooHoo....hehex my mum let mie go chalet but cant stay overnight...sianx coz my results good marhx...hehes...but results good got alot bad points....first, IF next year change class den cannot b wif jessica they all sianx...no really good frens...secondly, cant get at least $150 from government haha....jkjk...sianx niax....
jux came home from pasir ris.. straight after sch, went tuu Eelynn's hse coz meet her wif deanna at jurong east interchange then in sch nth tuu do den hw hab training den go her hse lo...after tt bout 2pm we went tuu jurong east interchange tuu meet deanna...we took bout more than 1hr tuu reach pasir ris from jurong east! wad a tiring journey...almost sleep in the train.after tt we took bus 354 to downtown east and we went tuu eat our lunch at mac before we went finding the chalet....we went tuu the pasir ris park de beach walk around while waiting for esther lam coz her grandfather got cancer so she will b late...-sad- so we walk along the beach lo...den saw nice nice de seashells those can open n close dex....then i thought of sumthing...den i told eelynn'hey we can play *sumthing* inside da shells horx...she sae hmm ya lor..then we 3 went around looking for tt kinda shells after about half an hour,esther's aunt called she ask us tuu meet dem at the entrance....den i thought i will return back here so i put the seashells on the sands thinking tt i would collect it later....den we went tuu find the costa sand resort find for bout 20mins bahx finally find the right costa sand resort n esther lam finally appear! phew!
we helped dem tuu packed the things and start the fire-BBQ. Time flys,it's around 6pm suthing bahx den we started tuu BBQ help tuu bbq the food for dem...anyway ther r esther lam+ deanna+eelynn+yun zhong+tiffany+calista n me! BBQ n eat until bout 8pm like tt then play roller blade fall down 2 times but not pain larhx... dunno how tuu play marhx haha...hmmm but quite fun lo...then we hab BBQ marshmallows tt's delicious! after tt it's around 9pm liaos then calista suggested tt we'll go tuu the pasir ris park for night walk hehex....but we neva stay long we lied down on eelynn's n my bag(coz after tt we r going straight home) we lied down on the road n admire the sky...it's a special night coz there r quite alot of stars in the sky too bad hw neva go...anyway after awhile we calista saw a whole big bunch of ppl cuming towards us we immediately get up coz paisey marhx haha den when they came nearer den we saw them clearly...chey is the primary sch student having their camp there...scared us! when they r quite faraway we continued admiring the stars in the sky...n we decided tuu make a wish and we hope tt we could see a shooting star bo bian in the end neva saw but we r all very happy n calista said tt she neva regret cuming here. wonderful! me too! thanks tuu esther lam! really enjoy ur chalet alot!we had so much fun there lo...really too bad lo such a romatic place haha...nevamind bahx...hahax...at least got lychee water drink haha jux kiddin larhx...
~will alwaes rmb the happy moments we've spent together. No matter wif hu.~
anyway so sad neva go bowling coz jessica said tt it's very fun haishx miss this chance budden my mum dun let also marhx haiyo dunno larhx but anyway must congratulate Xinyi the bowling champion n jessica the 2nd runner up! well done keep it up man! haha!CONGRATULATIONS!
Camp rawkz man. hmm.enjoy it very much but so damn tiring lo....went home 4sumnthing then bath then sleep liaos...until the next morning....pig hor? but i really very tired first tym first until really look like a damn pig lo...from around 5pm sleep until the wed 6am wake up...wah piang...but still very tired...
WEDNESDAY
wah piang today many ppl neva go sch if i knew tt i wouldnt hab gone tuu sch niax...so damn tired lo...haishx...stupid jesslyn PSK huh...neva cum sch PS me papa n mama.Mama misses u so much lorx den neva cum but lucky got some peace sorrry tuu sae tt but u really very noisy...haha mux hide from u liaos lata u see this entry will surely kill mie n ur tt QD will scold mie too! hahas...ok dun make fun of u...hehex hey gurl u mux cherish him...though....i object u being wif him...i OBJECT but wad cann i do i use knife force u arhx? cannot b rite...phew! todae sianx got angry got crazy got sad...more of sad...-cry- sianx niax..wanna get more sleepp....arhxxx...dunno whether i really got tuu do tis but mayb 1 day i hab no choice coz i'm really stuck in the middle n dunno wads the next route tuu take anyway i wan go pasir ris to attend esther lam's chalet...sianx cant go...suan le...n got ppl sae tt he/she very sianx no mood... relax larhx my faulth mehx not i mak u no mood rite i dunno wad happen but jux tuu sae relax okay...i dunno wad happen N SO i cant do anything...hmm seems like trouble looking for mie again...i'm in the wrong?hope notx. But all i can sae tt it's my choice. mayb i ba chui pa stamp or wad....i dint noe anything-innocentt- blehx sianx larhx...bb all i can say ish sorry sorry sorry....and sorry sorry though sorry cant solve the thinggy but theres nth i can do....dunno wad the hell n y i tpe is entry...nth tuu rite so anyhow rite? -lame- heyys i really dunno wad i writing-half asleep- anyway gtg bb...SORRY SORRY SORRY... I LOVE CAMP!!!!! HEYYS HOPE TIS YEAR BADMINTON CAMP LONGER 1 WEEK BETTER....HAHAS...
Today went out wif my cousin n my family. we went tuu 'goat farm', 'firefiles healthy vegetable farm', 'bollywood', 'aerogreen farm','frog farm'. we try the goat milk my mum dint wanna try she said tt got the goat de smell n da smell stinks...hmmm i tried goat milk hmm...it's delicious! n i sayang the goat they r so cute lo...wah piang even now my hands got the goat smell....haha....tuu b continued me going prepare tml's sec 2 camp lerhx....bye...
~i hate euu~-bitch
Today go IMM wif my sis n mum...den my sis wanna go minitoons den my mum jux look around while i accompany my sis actually wanna buy sumthing for him dex but den neberr briing money suan lerhx lor next tym bahx. C liaos my sis nth tuu buy den we went out of the shop to look for mummy den a woman around 40 years old ask us whether we r above 16 anot den my sis say she is den she ask us tuu help her go tuu the service counter register dunno wad den can win sumthing dex. then she squezzed my sis's arm den walk very fast i thought she going do wad something bad larhx kidnapped? how can b? so many ppl hahax... then i follow behind the woman n my sis. the woman talk so fast i cant keep up "B56@H#jh@f#fr9g0" dunno wad she talking, talk until like tt so unclear...den reach the service centre liaos then the staff lady ask us izzit the woman blah blah blah den we sae yayaya,tt woman ask us tuu help her...then the staff sae dun care bout her...n say tt the tuu register dey nid her IC number blah blahx den we walk away lor....i ask my sis tuu ran orelse later the woman catch up den siao liao !the woman i think sortx sortx de bahx...hahax...then after that we saw the woman behind us!!!! i hold my sis hand tightly n ran....IN IMM SO PAISEY LO...bo bian...haha...then 2gether wif my mum we went tuu giant...phew! she lost sight of us! hehex thanks tuu mie!no larhx.jk.den buy my things lor nid tuu buy slippers for camp yay! then saw dedorant then buy lor anyway can use it marhx n it smells great!so buy lorx hahax....wah piang nobody sms mie sianx then 5.30pm reach home...haishx my whole mind bout him lorhx....shopping also now also every second also... it's da truth~huiishann will neberr liie de worrs~ hahax die liaos si liaos si liaos cant live without him liaos haishx....hahas....[embarrassed] so mushy mushy...ahhahahaha..thiink of hiim so excited,happy. wah sei today also help jessica do her blog de thingy then tml again nid tuu help jesslyn do her blog sianx...my eyes so black lerhx after hrs looking at the screen tired lehx...HW!!!dey bully mie...haha juz kidding larhx...is i ask dem whether nid my help anot larhx i willingly help dem dex larhx think i first chose my blogskin first den help jesslyn create a blog...kekex...[so cunning] ...ok larhx later still nid tuu use com dex. today neberr talk tuu him on the phone makes my life so damn sianx half dead lerhx...my day todae ish quite dark dex nobody brighten up my dae!!![crys] k larhx i shld b happy coz i hab a wonderful him..hahas...ohhs sorry for mie being mushy mushy again ok larhx bb lor....-_-^^^go eat dinner later again do blogg de thingy or i will take a rest watch tv... i hate sat n sundays coz no sch no sch means cant c him cant see him means i'm dying...haha....
finally finish my bloggie thingy wah piang spent so much tym on it...in the end i dun like it! the background too plain lor...sianx..i wanna change blogskin again but spend alot of tym...haishx..i wan animations dex den black n piink da best haha now going find blogskins lerhx...wait for my new blogskin!!! cya!aniwae yesterdae play badminton so shiok lor hehes n also got him accompany wah sei so.....xingfu!!!!
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